Its ON

So here i am. After years of battling with myself on the subject of my sexuality i have slowly but surely come to an agreement within myself. Though i hate labels and everything they stand for, i can say that im officially gay. It was hard to come to truths but over the past 2 years ive really grown and essentially got a "taste" of what this lifestyle has (or doesnt) have to offer.

I'm an avid blogger and writing enthusiast and look to my personal blogs as a source to express myself the best way possible, through unspoken feelings/emotions. Ive grown accustomed to spilling my heart out on this screen for my few but loyal followers those of whom i know personally. Because of this, i am forced to filter out the things that may seem "taboo" to my friends/family and really say what is on my mind.

This is where BLOGGER comes along to the rescue. Ive finally got around to creating a anonymous blog where i can put forth all the inner workings of my mind with regards to my thoughts on the path ive chosen in life as a gay guy.

Gone are the days where i could openly grab my girlfriend's hand or show my true affection with no regard to the environment around me. I have to learn to ask myself 2 extra questions before pursuing someone. Are they gay? If so, are they "out" and how would i go about approaching the situation. I don't know about you, but im constantly second guessing myself with a regards to a guys body movements or stares. Maybe i have something on my face or is there actually some depth to your actions?

Guys here in the country i currently reside are difficult to read indeed. Most guys are discrete and are straight looking as they get.I personally dont mind it as I also act in such manner. Its not necessarily an "act" but more of just who we are. Must we dress like girls or be overly feminant to live up to the stereotype that defines our community to the masses? I think not.

Anyway before i go off on an tangent, I'm primarily here to better understand myself and use this space to record my thoughts and daily happenings in my homosexual world that continues to be hidden behind this straight persona i hold on to with a passion.

I will write about my experiences but promise to keep names/locations very basic as not to reveal my identity or more importantly that of others.

Heres to the start of something new for this Closeted gay asian boy. 


I hope you are able to share your experiences and even become inspired to find yourself because of it.  Curious/BI/GAY/Down.  We all can relate